Feelings

I have been feeling quite down recently hiding my feelings about how im feeling to people around me, i dont like to admit that i have been or am suffering depression which i am embarressed to admit. I wish i didnt feel my stomach ache with pain, it feels as tho a churning is going on in my stomach, i need to get a job and soon as i need to get out of the situation that i am in i am in a real rutt.

Today at 1130 i am goin to the jobcentre to sign on as now i want to go on the New Deal which im entitled to go on.

Weekend here again

Lastnight I went to my friends house and had a lovely time there, there was plenty of spiritual activity there, very active and very very lovely house. We were drinking wine and were enjoying the evening.

This morning my friend cooked me and her and her daughter a lovely fryup of quarn sausages beans tomatoes scrambled egg mushrooms and toast with a lovely cup of tea to wash down.

This afternoon Max my wesite came, I have him for the weekend as my ex is out with her new bloke tonite.

Reading at 1 this afternoon

i am meditating in a bit for my reading i am doing this afternoon, i have been thinking of developing my healing more and also my clairaudience,
i found this on a cool website which may be helpfull for people interested in healing.



Here are some questions that you may ask yourself when exploring spiritual healing, if you have a question that is not answered here please add it to this thread and l will try to answer it for you ) Q - What is Spiritual Healing?This form of healing, which is not to be confused with spiritualism, uses a holistic approach, helping a person to return to the harmony of body, mind and spirit. The channeling of energies by the healer re-energizes the patient to deal with illness or injury. Healing often helps with the speed and extent of recovery from serious illness and major surgery and from the effects of treatments such as chemotherapy and radiation therapy. It complements allopathic and alternative medicine. Healers see the body, mind and spirit as one interdependent unit and believe all three must work in harmony to maintain positive health. Any problem, from a broken leg to depression needs the power of healing to restore the balance of the whole person. Some feel that sickness often starts in the mind, or at the deeper level of the spirit, and it is often here that healing begins. Q - How is it practiced?The channel is usually a person, whom we call a healer, and the healing energy is usually transferred to the client through the healer's hands. The healing does not come from the healer, but through him/her. When a healer lays his hand the client he/she acts as a conductor or channel for the healing energy which he/she believes has the "intelligence" to go where it is needed. Within Spiritual Healing there are specific healing techniques for each level of the human energy field. For a spiritual healer, healing includes sensing, cleansing, balancing, repairing and charging the field. The healing energy moves through all levels of this field, those that correspond not only to the client's physical, emotional and mental nature, but to his/her spiritual nature and basic beliefs in reality. Q - Will it harm or cure me? Spiritual healing given by a trained Spiritual Healer will not harm or injure anyone. Many times you will see a marked improvement. There is no form of healing that can be guaranteed. Nor can there be a guarantee that there will be any improvement or cure.Q - What will I feel? All healing sessions are different. Sometimes you will feel the healers hands get warm or even hot. This is a sign of the Divine Energy that is channeled through the healer. Clients have seen colors, visions, shapes, figures and some see nothing. Almost all the clients get a wonderful sense of peace and a gentle soothing of one’s spirit. It is different for every client.Q - What can I do to help my healing session? Relax as much as possible. Mentally open your mind to allow the healing energy to flow through your body. Even if you don’t feel anything, trust in it!! Keeping an open, unbiased mind will help the flow of energy. Q - What methods does a Spiritual Healer use? There are many methods to do healing work that are available to a Spiritual Healer. Some of these are:Prayer Distant Healing Journeying Advance levels of concentration Visualizations Past life healings Channeling of Spiritual Energy (Universal Energy) Channeling of Spiritual Guides and Helpers Q - Do I need to be of a certain religion to make this spiritual healing work? Not at all. Your choice of religious values will not effect your healing. Q - What do I need to do as my part of my healing? Envision yourself healed and well after each session. Envision yourself returned to perfect health at the mind, body, and spirit level. By doing this you will encourage your natural healing processes to start to work on your condition. Relax and trust in the Divine Power and allow the healing doctors to work.

Wedsnesday Church visit to Brighouset

i went to brighouse spiritual church last nite, i gave a message which was good in the open circle, when i got back me and my friend had a coffee and a good chat about all sorts. Today has been a quiet day, i am doing a reading tomorrow afternoon which i am looking forward to doing.

Psychic intuition

Everyone has some innate psychic ability. Psychic is intuition is the ability to know without words, to sense the truth without explanations. Intuition is not bound by the physical body. It operates by know the past present and future are simultaneous. It takes the desires of your conscious mind, goes out into the future and finds a way for you to have them. It speak to you through insights, revelations and urges. It does not say to you in an intellectual way "I must do this tomorrow, this is on my list and it would be good to get this done" Instead it says "Wouldn't this be fun wouldn't it be joyful? This is what I want to do today" Bridge the gap between the intellect and intuition, use the heart energy of trust and faith. Intuition will often give you answers that are not logical yet the answers work if you trust and accept them. There is a role for intellect, that is to formulate plans, decide where to go, and carry out things with action. Intellect is like the captain of a ship, consulting maps, making plans, steering the ship. Yet the weather and ocean actually determine the course, so the captain must remain flexible and use his plans as a guideline. Intuition tells you of the storms ahead and detours you must take. Focus your will and intent on going higher, that is the best use of your intellect, top keep you on course and set goals that interact with the world. Your intuition will take you there in the best, fastest and easiest way - if you follow your feelings, hunches inner urgings and desires. You intuition sends you messages constantly, telling you every moment what to do to open your energy. It is always directing you towards aliveness and a higher path. The intellect can do battle with your intuition, and the intellect loves to run the show. Your intellect might say that "if it happens too easily it can't be right". Many doors will open when you follow your intuition. You can find new answers to your problems in seconds rather than days, weeks or months.Allow yourself to listen to your whispers and to act on them. Do the things you have been wanting to. Be a child again. Create fun in your life and you will find that creative energy will awaken and flow as never before.If you find yourself resisting something, stop and ask yourself what you would rather do instead. It may be that it is not the highest way, or it may be the wrong time. Intuition, the sixth charka is associated with the colour of indigo, red violet. If you find that you are attracted to that colour, it may be that you are opening in this area. For those of you who are opening the sith charka, or the third eye, as it is called, the challenge is to hear your intuition, and then follow it with action.

Shaved my head

I went to have my head shaved at 2 this afternoon, i have been wanting it done for quite a while now but not plucked up courage to do so, untill now!!!.

Tonite my friend is comming over for company were having some wine and grapes.

Me with shaved hair off, 15.08 15/2/08

Wedsnesday Church visit to Brighouse

Yesterday was a good day, I went to brighouse Spiritual Church again but this time my new friend Vicki came with us, i really like Vicki she is a lovely soul and id like to get together with her. When we got to the Church with Debbie it was good, there were quite alot of people in there which was good. The Medium who was on was really good, she was accurate and gave a message to Vicki which she really liked and could accept which was lovely.

After the demonstration me and Debbie went for some healing which we both needed, when we had come out we all sat in open circle and I had a message to give to someone who could partly take it which I thought was good.

After the open circle we went home, me and Vicki came back to my house and she said she was hungry and did I fancy a chicken tika kebab from Zam Zams, I had'nt eaten since early afternoon and we proceded to go off to the cash machine to get some cash out. We got the kebabs which were lovely, and Vicki said she had a bottle of red wine in her handbag, so I said really she said yea so she produced it lol, and we sat at mine eating the kebab and drinking a bottle of lovely red wine. We had a lovely chat and enjoyed the rest of the evening, she eventually went home at 1220am which we didnt know it was that late.

Passed the Numeracy but no interview lol

Turns out i passed the numeracy test last week but not the english test lol.

Tonite i had tea at Sues which was lovely

Mad Weekend

What a weekend i have had it has been good but also tiring. My mate Chris from Hull came over we had a great time, on friday i picked him up from Halifax trainstation, we headed back to mine and got sorted and then went for a game of pool at my local, then at 830 we went to Zam Zams.

We both had Korma with pilu rice and peshwari naan and a bottle of water.
When we had finishedwe went to the local pub for a few games of pool then came back and chileld on the ps3 for a few hours

saturday i bought a new dvdrw which wass good.

Munich 50yrs on remembered

The Greatest?? i think so


Duncan Edwards Born: Dudley.Age: 21.Appearances/goals: 177/21.England: 18/5. When I used to hear Muhammad Ali proclaim to the world that he was the greatest, I would always smile. The greatest of them all was a footballer named Duncan Edwards - Jimmy Murphy
Is it possible that Duncan Edwards was really that good? Greater, perhaps, than Pele or Alfredo di Stefano? Frustratingly, there being little film footage available of him in action, we must depend upon the evidence of eyewitnesses at the time. "He was the best player I've ever seen and the best footballer I ever played with," says Sir Bobby Charlton. "I always felt I could compare well with any player - except Duncan. He was such a talent, I always felt inferior to him."
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Sir Bobby Charlton: The Munich story
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Even Matt Busby, who was vehement in his refusal to acknowledge that one 'Babe' might be regarded as more important than the others, could not camouflage the tone of awe that entered his voice whenever Edwards' name was raised. "Duncan had everything. He was so big, so strong, so confident and still so young. Right from the start we gave up trying to spot flaws in his game. John Charles was another giant of a player, a giant with great, great skill. But as a player, even John didn't have as much as Duncan. He used to move upfield brushing people aside to lash in late goals when we needed them."

Phenomenal: Duncan Edwards
The complete footballer who could have played in any outfield position - though he is primarily remembered as a defensive midfielder - Edwards was only 18 when he became England's youngest post-War international, a record that stood until Michael Owen's debut in 1998. But long before he starred in England's crushing 7-2 defeat of Scotland at Wembley on April 2, 1955, every club in the land had been monitoring the movements of the boy wonder from the Black Country.
As early as 1948, a handwritten letter from United's chief scout in the Midlands, Jack O'Brien, landed on Busby's desk. "Have today seen a 12-year-old schoolboy who merits special watching. His name is Duncan Edwards, of Dudley. Instructions please." O'Brien's recommendation was promptly passed on to coach Bert Whalley with the added instructions: "Please arrange special watch immediately - MB."
With the young man in question turning out for Wolverhampton Street Secondary School, Dudley Schools XI, Worcester County XI and Birmingham & District XI, arranging a 'special watch' represented something of a full-time occupation. At the age of 13, he walked out at Wembley on April 1, 1950, to win his first 'cap' for England Schoolboys against Wales Schoolboys in front of a crowd of 100,000; at 14 he was appointed England Schools captain - a position he would hold for two seasons. With Wolverhampton Wanderers hovering, on June 2, 1952, United pounced, Whalley banging on the Edwards front door at 31 Elm Road on the threadbare Priory council estate at 2am, brandishing amateur forms. Having put pen to paper, young Duncan, still in his pyjamas, left Whalley and his father, Gladstone, to sort out the details while he climbed the stairs to bed, muttering: "I don't know what all this fuss was about. I've said all along that Manchester United were the only club I wanted to join."
Ten months later Edwards made his first-team debut at left-half aged 16 years and 183 days against Cardiff City at Old Trafford; not that the date April 4, 1953, is writ large in the history of Manchester United, a 4-1 defeat leaving the reigning champions in the no-man's land of mid-table. Busby was fully aware that despite his side's league title success the previous season, the majority of the United players belonged to the over-the-hill gang and Edwards' fellow 'Babes', David Pegg, Dennis Viollet, Bill Foulkes, Mark Jones and Jackie Blanchflower, were also introduced during the closing weeks of the season.
A permanent fixture in the England Under-23 side from the age of 17, United's teenage sorcerer may have grown in fame with every passing game but he remained engagingly modest throughout his all-too-brief career. "He might have been the Koh-i-Noor diamond among our crown jewels," Murphy explained, "but he was an unspoiled boy to the end, his head the same size it had been from the start. Even when he had won his first England cap but was still eligible for our youth team, he used to love turning out with the rest of the youngsters. He just loved to play anywhere and with anyone." (He had one known vice as a child - as well as representing his school at football, he was also a member of the Morris dancing team.)
According to Busby, ". . . the bigger the occasion the better he liked it", and there were few bigger occasions than England's 1956 international against World Cup holders West Germany in the Olympic Stadium in Berlin, where Edwards scored a goal. With 25 minutes gone and the score 0-0, he gained possession on the edge of his own penalty area and set off on a run that left a trail of West Germans in his wake before smashing the ball into the net from 25 yards.

Inspired by Edwards' 'wonder goal', England went on to win 3-1, after which captain Billy Wright observed: "The name of Duncan Edwards was on the lips of everyone who saw this match; he was phenomenal. There have been few individual performances to match what he produced that day. Duncan tackled like a lion, attacked at every opportunity and topped it off with that cracker of a goal. He was still only 19, but was already a world-class player."

Sir Bobby Charlton pays tribute to those who lost their lives in the Munich air disaster
After being carried from the wreckage of the plane, Edwards fought for life with the same indomitable spirit in which he played football. Suffering from a collapsed lung, damaged kidneys, broken ribs, broken pelvis, multiple fractures of his right thigh and a litany of internal injuries, for 15 days he defied death in the Rechts der Isar Hospital before even he had to accept defeat.
Among the questions that can never be answered is whether England - with international regulars Edwards, Tommy Taylor and Roger (and possibly Jones and Pegg) from United's 1956 and 1957 championship-winning team - could have won the 1958 World Cup in Sweden instead of bowing out in the group stage after a 0-0 draw with eventual winners Brazil? And come 1966, when Edwards would only have been 29, would it have been his hands or those of Bobby Moore that held aloft the Jules Rimet trophy?

On the day of his funeral, more than 5,000 people lined the streets of Dudley, following which Jimmy Murphy offered the following valediction: "If I shut my eyes now I can see him; the pants hitched up, the wild leaps of boyish enthusiasm as he came running out of the tunnel, the tremendous power of his tackling, always fair but fearsome, his immense power on the ball. The greatest? There was only one and that was Duncan Edwards."
Duncan Edwards is buried in the Borough Cemetery, Dudley, where the inscription on his headstone reads:
A day of memory,Sad to recall,Without farewell,He left us all. . .

Didnt get the job

I didnt get the job which was dissapointing, but, the funny thing is the job i thought i was going for was actually for a admin job not call centre job.

Job Interview today

I have got my job interview today, i am looking forward to it but nervous as i really need this job. Im going for a workout in a minute, going to work my chest and abs and come back and chill.

Reading Tonight

I have a reading tonight at 6, im looking forward to it as i have not done a reading for a few weeks now, i am soo glad thati have it, the weekend was boring as hell nothing much happened apart from dissapointments and also arguments with people that i care about.

I need to get out and about more and move on in my life as i am not doing myself any favours believeing that i will get back with the EX,so i have to sort my shit out and get out and about and stop moaning and moping about here at home. I need to meditate more but not for too long, i need to chill out and read more on spiritual matters and develop my gifts furthur, i want to start going to the spiritual church and do the development class.

Weekend

Chilling out today and tonite, dont know wots happening yet, so we will see